this got to be written

the thing with meeting up with your friends with their respective spouses, or with your spouse's friends with their significant others (married or otherwise), is that you tend to compare (like it or not), your relationship with theirs.

the worst case scenario is to have all these elements come in play during the most momentous occasion for any couple, that is a wedding. 

(for those who are not into marriages, feel free to insert anything in the underlined word)

i could not help but feel that the magic in our relationship is lacking or perhaps the fizzle at the end of the magic wand is in dire need of more sparks, when i see couples interact lovingly and if not lovingly, theirs would be engaging. there is some easygoing banter and mutual likeability, however, with us, it's just 2 people sitting next to each other with nothing much to say.

to put salt to the wound, he didn't even bother to inform me where he went, just before the happy couple were to walk into the hall. just because i have some people at the table whom i could talk to, i was left alone on my own devices. 

the fact that i could talk more and amicably with the other people at the table caused me to ponder more on US.

was it me who did not try to make conversation? or was it he who felt the need to mingle more socially for  networking reason? but couldn't he just balance this requisite interaction and be respectful enough to me to know that i should be in the loop?

or perhaps, even from the beginning, when we arrived at the hall, he already walked ahead of me, because he didn't want to be late... but in the end, we were not even close to be the last to arrive. because we could not see the rest of his gang. *sigh*

it is true about relationship, i guess. we could not help but compare. could we?